Lately, I've been doing a lot of research on my Myers-Briggs personality type. And by a lot, I mean avoiding homework for hours every day and learning so many new things about myself. I find myself constantly going, "Ohmygosh, that is so me." Although it would be impossible to entirely sum a person up in one of sixteen different personality types, these things are scary accurate. (If you haven't taken one or don't even know what I'm talking about, I would encourage you to take the test and have your mind blown by how accurate the results are– http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/jtypes2.asp)
So I am an INTP: Introvert iNtuitive Thinking Perceiving. I'm not going to talk about everything I've read about myself because that would take forever and is beside the point. Bear with me. INTPs spend a great deal of time inside themselves, and they deal with things rationally and logically. That is beyond true of myself. I approach every part of my life with a rational outlook. I try to solve emotional problems with logic instead of feelings. Logical thinking is a huge part of my daily life. The more I think about this, the more I realize how illogical God is, and how freeing it is for something to not make rational sense.
God is everywhere. He is in everything. I know the needs within myself, I see the circumstances people I love are facing, and these things often seem like a large, heavy, overwhelming fact. Today, it sort of hit me... There are around 7 billion people on the earth. The people I come across and know their stories don't even make up .01% of those 7 billion. Every single person on earth is dealing with something, or more likely many somethings. All of those 7 billion individually have an unending list of deep, complex needs. All of them have a past, a present, and a future. 108 people in the world die every minute, while 267 are being born. Thinking about the gargantuan size of this world and the complexities within every creature– from the smallest bacteria to humans to a blue whale– is absolutely mind boggling. I can't wrap my head around how much is happening every second. Even more so, I cannot begin to fathom how big that makes God. I've always known that fact, but my understanding is so minuscule and limited, there is no way for me to begin to grasp God's sovereignty.
God reigns over one person's relationship while reigning over another person's mourning the death of loved one while reigning over another's depression while reigning over another's celebration of new life while reigning over another's heartbreak and disappointment while reigning over another's parents getting divorced.....the list goes on and on. The list is endless. Our God is greater still.
Never have I understood that statement more. God is really sovereign. He has the power to hold every person's every need with tireless, limitless strength. Wow.
God is so so limitless and sovereign. How awesome is that? I pray that you (as well as myself) never stop being in awe at the name of Jesus and never underestimate the enormity of God.
My logical self can't help being awestruck. God's love is not a logical thing. Jesus pouring His love out for all the world literally makes no rational sense to my little head. There is nothing in me that is worthy of His unfailing, unending love. But that is the powerful being of God. For Him to not freely pour out His love on the entire world would completely contradict His nature. He is love. He is goodness. Therefore, I have to constantly remind myself to stop being so logical because God's love will never make sense to a mind this small. I am incapable of wrapping my head around the perfect character of God. My mind is so blown, I'm struggling to put it into words.
Just allow yourself to stand mouth gaping open, sin before you, blessings surrounding you, unfair circumstances crushing you, knowing that our God is greater still.
